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mermaidlady and new_man. A really wonderfully companionable night that reminds me how special it is to have friends for whom one is simply oneself. The kind of comfort where you don't have to stand on protocol. We had a simple meal of leftovers and salad, did dishes and went into various different rooms for evening productivity. We reconvened as our various activities allowed, but felt no need to be host/ess and guest. It's nice to be family. And really special when it's people who chose you, as opposed to sharing your gene pool.
I spent most of the night working on the @#$%ing homework project. I have implemented all the suggested fixes the professor had last Monday, and my program is still pretty unstable on the current battery of tests. There's a randomness factor built in, so the first run may succeed and the second may crap out hideously. I suspect I'm still missing something significant and hope the prof has a big clue for me. I can't spare more time with dicking around with last week's tests. I have more functionality to write this week. I try to tell myself that by being active and involved in the homework, I make it nearly impossible to give me a horrible grade. But I find myself freaking out nonetheless.
Well... off to bed. I am at the point where slamming my head against the wall will do no good, and I'm too tired to start on the new material. A nice few minutes of giesha reading will hopefully work wonders. It's really lovely to read about something that is so totally not my life. It's like an adventure, a new friend, and a vacation, all in a book. It does leave me craving Japanese food, but since it's not hard to get high-veggie, lots o' fish, low carb Japanese food, I have no objection there.
Wish I could think of a non-food hedonistic pleasure right now (besides the obvious... boy is your mind in the gutter), because I really crave food. Maybe the new Egyptian cotton sheets... not quite the same... but at least I won't be tempted to eat them. Maybe the 7-11 has some low-fat ice cream...
I guess this is a sign that the diet is going along. My body is convinced, just before every meal that it Must Eat Now for the LOVE OF GOD WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?? FEEDMEFEEDMEFEEDME. Ahem. Kind of like that. I need to start planning little, healthy Lakshmi Snacks, like carrots, and fruit, and juice. Maybe some whole grain cereal something... if I eat early, small and often, I think the craving will ebb, and my whole body will be better for it.
mermaidlady and new_man. A really wonderfully companionable night that reminds me how special it is to have friends for whom one is simply oneself. The kind of comfort where you don't have to stand on protocol. We had a simple meal of leftovers and salad, did dishes and went into various different rooms for evening productivity. We reconvened as our various activities allowed, but felt no need to be host/ess and guest. It's nice to be family. And really special when it's people who chose you, as opposed to sharing your gene pool.I spent most of the night working on the @#$%ing homework project. I have implemented all the suggested fixes the professor had last Monday, and my program is still pretty unstable on the current battery of tests. There's a randomness factor built in, so the first run may succeed and the second may crap out hideously. I suspect I'm still missing something significant and hope the prof has a big clue for me. I can't spare more time with dicking around with last week's tests. I have more functionality to write this week. I try to tell myself that by being active and involved in the homework, I make it nearly impossible to give me a horrible grade. But I find myself freaking out nonetheless.
Well... off to bed. I am at the point where slamming my head against the wall will do no good, and I'm too tired to start on the new material. A nice few minutes of giesha reading will hopefully work wonders. It's really lovely to read about something that is so totally not my life. It's like an adventure, a new friend, and a vacation, all in a book. It does leave me craving Japanese food, but since it's not hard to get high-veggie, lots o' fish, low carb Japanese food, I have no objection there.
Wish I could think of a non-food hedonistic pleasure right now (besides the obvious... boy is your mind in the gutter), because I really crave food. Maybe the new Egyptian cotton sheets... not quite the same... but at least I won't be tempted to eat them. Maybe the 7-11 has some low-fat ice cream...
I guess this is a sign that the diet is going along. My body is convinced, just before every meal that it Must Eat Now for the LOVE OF GOD WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?? FEEDMEFEEDMEFEEDME. Ahem. Kind of like that. I need to start planning little, healthy Lakshmi Snacks, like carrots, and fruit, and juice. Maybe some whole grain cereal something... if I eat early, small and often, I think the craving will ebb, and my whole body will be better for it.
