Hi from beyond the bed
Dec. 7th, 2006 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bethlakshmiHi journal folks!
Had a really nice trip to NYC - where I really enjoyed performing, and then I really enjoyed hanging with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
new_man's very cool sister and absolutely charming neice.
And then I came home to HELL. Starting Sunday I've had painful and disabling jaw and hip/butt problems. While I can usually chew well enough to get mushy food down while talking, I've had three weeks of trouble with my bite. And a leg strain that I had in October came flaring up again in a truly amazing fashion. I'm currently on anti-inflmatories and muscle relaxants and after three days, I'm finally moving around in an almost-OK manner. The whole thing has me really scared.
The best anybody (including an oral surgeon, a chiropractor, a massage/phsyical therapist and my nearest and dearest) can figure, this is all coming from stress. There was no injury, and there was no discernable way that I used my body wrong - this is just me, hurting myself.
The whole thing has been pretty scary, and I've been mostly incommunicado - between work email/LJ issues and the fact that sitting by a computer anymore than I do already makes me want to cry - well... I've been hiding.
On the ?up? side, my boss saw me crying in my cube while on the phone withnew_man and sent me home to rest. I took advantage of that and have spent two days off my feet, despite a grueling deadline. Since I already did a day of overtime, its really only one sick day. And having him be so kind makes me feel a little less scared about talking to him about my problems and concerns.
My massage therapist says I keep too much inside and don't let it out or tell people when they are hurting me, annoying me, or causing me difficulties. He's probably right, and I'm gonna try to change that, but it's awfully scary. I will dwell on a bad confrontation for weeks and even years after it happened. But I gotta start saying something or my body is just going to kill me.
Had a really nice trip to NYC - where I really enjoyed performing, and then I really enjoyed hanging with
new_man's very cool sister and absolutely charming neice.And then I came home to HELL. Starting Sunday I've had painful and disabling jaw and hip/butt problems. While I can usually chew well enough to get mushy food down while talking, I've had three weeks of trouble with my bite. And a leg strain that I had in October came flaring up again in a truly amazing fashion. I'm currently on anti-inflmatories and muscle relaxants and after three days, I'm finally moving around in an almost-OK manner. The whole thing has me really scared.
The best anybody (including an oral surgeon, a chiropractor, a massage/phsyical therapist and my nearest and dearest) can figure, this is all coming from stress. There was no injury, and there was no discernable way that I used my body wrong - this is just me, hurting myself.
The whole thing has been pretty scary, and I've been mostly incommunicado - between work email/LJ issues and the fact that sitting by a computer anymore than I do already makes me want to cry - well... I've been hiding.
On the ?up? side, my boss saw me crying in my cube while on the phone with
new_man and sent me home to rest. I took advantage of that and have spent two days off my feet, despite a grueling deadline. Since I already did a day of overtime, its really only one sick day. And having him be so kind makes me feel a little less scared about talking to him about my problems and concerns.My massage therapist says I keep too much inside and don't let it out or tell people when they are hurting me, annoying me, or causing me difficulties. He's probably right, and I'm gonna try to change that, but it's awfully scary. I will dwell on a bad confrontation for weeks and even years after it happened. But I gotta start saying something or my body is just going to kill me.
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