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[bethlakshmi]

Gr...


...I just wish it wasn't this planet.

This is triggered by the ongoing O.S. class angst. Last night I spent a good 3 hours on the project. I fixed problem #1 with the KISS (Keep it simple stupid) principle, but still have problem #2. I wrote long, detailed message with code and output to prof. With a typical format of statement #1, statement #2 based on 1... etc... example output showing conglomeration of statements and following thesis, and request for help. I got back a reply that started with the opposite of statement #1 and ran amok from there. Including ways to check on the status of the system that I CAN'T USE for various completely technical reasons. At the end he just wished me "happy debugging" and never really gave me any suggestions at all.

I wrote him back a polite email, attempting to correct his suppositions and offering my own supposition that his code is broken and my theory on what's going wrong. But I feel very low on the confidence that this will work. I have a few other hacks up my sleeve, but I don't like the idea of using them. I find them inelegant and technically klugey.


Anyhoo... actually got up and practiced this morning. It did put me in a good mood, but it also pointed out how much I need to reestablish practicing. My aramundi is shaky and I'm not completing pushpanjali moves cleanly. Oh well. At least I know some stuff that needs practicing. That's better than thinking you are perfect and being wrong.

Also irritated that I can't find a tape of Aparna singing yaare bandaravu, the devaranama that I'm doing with Padme. I found a hidden treasure trove of tapes that I had packed in a nice, safe, forgotten spot... but still not yaare bandaravu. Maddeningly, a tape cover proves the existence of a tape that is a collection of Aparna songs that includes yaare bandaravu... but said tape is not in safe hiding storage location. I feel sad because it's lost. I feel guilty because I lost it. I feel anxious because I thought Aparna was supposed to be home by now. And I feel grumpy because it's been 3/4 of a year with no regular dance classes in Bharata Natyam. I could go find another teacher, but I don't want to. I love Aparna (even if she makes me crazy sometimes), I deeply respect her and I think she's an excellent instructor. Those things are hard to come by, and I don't want another teacher. *whine*

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