Merry Christmas
Dec. 24th, 2006 12:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bethlakshmiI'm a little pensive tonight. The last couple months have been a little rough what with job stress and body problems. And holidays are kinda stressful on their own. There's the hustle and bustle and endless scheduling stress. Or at least there has been since I was old enough to have some say in how my life was scheduled - which was only slightly after my parents split up. It always seems like one has the unpleasant options of running around from family to family -or- smooshing all of one's family into one location and watching them all be uncomfortable with it. But maybe that's just my weird life.
Sometimes I wish the holidays didn't even happen. After all, they mark a time when we try to show the people we love how much we love them, and you'll never really be able to do that properly in just one day. Or even just one season. That's the kind of thing that takes a lifetime.
OK... I'll fess up and admit that today's schedule included:
- finishing the Christmas shopping with a rather significant portion to do today.
- happily avoiding the mall (score one for Lakshmi, and with many thanks to the fine establishments of Jamaica Plain who not only fulfilled my shopping needs, but also provided some yummy tea sandwiches to my diet today).
- a nap
- 5 hours of present wrapping
- 7 hours of movie watching, weird tear jerkers on the high numbers of cable
- no dinner (heating some soup as I write)
But... I have to admit that while I'm a little slow to get into the holiday spirit, it generally gets me. I have set up my ever so shiny little utterly synethic tree - it's the kind of thing only a Burlesque diva or a gay man should own - (complete with two pig ornaments, and a lovely middle eastern camel ornament), and am rather amazed at the mound of presents underneath it. The only present addressed to me in the house is an empty prop present I made for the Babydolls show last weekend.
And I couldn't be happier.
I'm really looking forward to seeing how the people I love like what I gave them. I don't really care what they give me. I'm just thankful for two things this year:
- that I have enough of the things I need and want to be able to give what I want to the people I love.
- that I have so many people I love so much that it can take me 5 hours of tear jerking movies to wrap all this loot.
And, if nothing else, I'm glad Christmas gives us a chance to notice that stuff. This has been a helluva year. It's easy to see the yucky parts - having hip problems that keep my dancing to a minimum, having a job turn from uninteresting to unpleasant, having stress with family transitions. But it's good to not overlook the good stuff - I was awarded several times this year in my career and my schooling, I'm a teacher who has a good rep with her students, I have more people I wish to see than I have time to see them, I've produced a daunting number of new costumes, and learned a whole new direction in dance. I've met some great new folks, and seen great new sides of folks I already new. I don't think I actually want to trade this year in for a better one - even with the yucky stuff.
And so... merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
(mm... there's a lot of garlic in a soup when you can smell the soup a floor above the microwave... it's a good thing I'm the only one at Casa Lakshmi tonight. :) )
Sometimes I wish the holidays didn't even happen. After all, they mark a time when we try to show the people we love how much we love them, and you'll never really be able to do that properly in just one day. Or even just one season. That's the kind of thing that takes a lifetime.
OK... I'll fess up and admit that today's schedule included:
- finishing the Christmas shopping with a rather significant portion to do today.
- happily avoiding the mall (score one for Lakshmi, and with many thanks to the fine establishments of Jamaica Plain who not only fulfilled my shopping needs, but also provided some yummy tea sandwiches to my diet today).
- a nap
- 5 hours of present wrapping
- 7 hours of movie watching, weird tear jerkers on the high numbers of cable
- no dinner (heating some soup as I write)
But... I have to admit that while I'm a little slow to get into the holiday spirit, it generally gets me. I have set up my ever so shiny little utterly synethic tree - it's the kind of thing only a Burlesque diva or a gay man should own - (complete with two pig ornaments, and a lovely middle eastern camel ornament), and am rather amazed at the mound of presents underneath it. The only present addressed to me in the house is an empty prop present I made for the Babydolls show last weekend.
And I couldn't be happier.
I'm really looking forward to seeing how the people I love like what I gave them. I don't really care what they give me. I'm just thankful for two things this year:
- that I have enough of the things I need and want to be able to give what I want to the people I love.
- that I have so many people I love so much that it can take me 5 hours of tear jerking movies to wrap all this loot.
And, if nothing else, I'm glad Christmas gives us a chance to notice that stuff. This has been a helluva year. It's easy to see the yucky parts - having hip problems that keep my dancing to a minimum, having a job turn from uninteresting to unpleasant, having stress with family transitions. But it's good to not overlook the good stuff - I was awarded several times this year in my career and my schooling, I'm a teacher who has a good rep with her students, I have more people I wish to see than I have time to see them, I've produced a daunting number of new costumes, and learned a whole new direction in dance. I've met some great new folks, and seen great new sides of folks I already new. I don't think I actually want to trade this year in for a better one - even with the yucky stuff.
And so... merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
(mm... there's a lot of garlic in a soup when you can smell the soup a floor above the microwave... it's a good thing I'm the only one at Casa Lakshmi tonight. :) )
